Live For Today...Plan For Tomorrow...Party Tonight..!

Live For Today...Plan For Tomorrow...Party Tonight... this definitely sums up the day i had today, today was Tyler's Little brothers graduation party. I know not all of you know Tyler or his family but they LOVE to party! Their parties are always fun but also sometimes nerve racking because you never know whats going to happen next..

Today was especially nerve racking for me since Tyler's grandparents and aunt are visiting from Texas that i have never met before. Needless to say they all are very nice people just like the rest of Tyler's close knit family.

It's very hard on both me ,Ty, and his family and friends (especially Lorrie, Tyler's mom) when he isn't there at his family get together and parties, its even harder when i meet his family members I've never met before without him standing next to me. Today i found myself looking around thinking Tyler would be around but he wasn't. the closest any of us can get to him is when we all crowd in a small room to talk to him on skype, while this is a nice resource to have it's still nothing like the real thing. i know its even harder for him then all of us.

Sometimes i feel like i don't have anything in common with some of his family members EXCEPT that we all share this UN fill-able void of his missing presence when we're all together. like a little piece of each and everyone of us is milling because he isn't there with us, i hate this feeling. All i keep telling myself is that this too is only temporary and soon we can all be together again with no missing pieces and no worrying, just good times, laughter and making life long memories.

All in all tonight was a great experience for me, it was a chance for me to spend time with Tyler's family and the friends that are closest to him and i know it means a lot to him that im there even if he cant be.

i look forward to spending more time and getting to know everyone in his family, it makes me feel closer to him .