Its been awhile...

Okay i admit it I've been slacking on the blogging. but i do have a valid reason that reason being of high stress and no motivation for anything other then talking to tyler and trying to plan a wedding. And some other upsetting reasons that will not be mentioned here. i like to blog when I'm happy, not when I'm mad at the world and frustrated with life, i would like my blogging experience to be a happy one just not for me but for all.

With that said I'm going to try and blog everyday even if my day isn't so happy or perfect that's okay cause i want to remember all of this later in life, and the only way for me to do that is to write everything down or in this day and age type everything out.

Just to be fair to all my unknown readers out there its only fair to give a short recap of some of the things that have been going on in the past 3 weeks:
i have been working 9-10 hour days at work, planning a wedding, getting together with my M.O.H (Maid of honor), picked out the wine for the wedding, picked out wedding announcements, talked to Tyler everyday even at odd hours, went summer clothes shopping, received my passport, went to 3 doctor appointments, asked Amanda (Tyler Sister) to be my bridesmaid, and I've been spending a lot of time with my mom doing wedding stuff, i also went wedding dress shopping but only tried on 2 dresses both of which i wasn't in love with.

But honestly the one thing ive been doing the most out of all these things is missing tyler and counting down the days until i go see him which is exactly 16days and a wake up (that's how they count down in the army)i miss Tyler more then anything ever! i cant wait to see him. i feel like my feelings for him grow stronger and stronger everyday. i cant wait to start my new life with him! There are so many new things I'm going to experience in the next year, like being married, moving out of my parents house, living in a different country, working in a different country and starting college again! i cant wait!anyways i just wanted everyone to read this to know I'm not dead ha-ha.
meet my Brides Maids:

My Maid Of Honor Ashley (Best Friend)Brides Maid: Nicole (Sister)
Brides Maid: Kylee (Sister)Brides Maid: Taylor (Best Friend)
Brides Maid: Amanda (Tyler's Sister)

to be continued

i dont feel like blogging right now ill blog tomorrow!

who really doesnt know who justin bieber is....

I'll tell you who...Tyler . ha-ha it made me laugh so hard! he is like who the hell is Justin bieber. i think he is the only person who doesn't know who justin bieber is i mean seriously my mother knows who 16 year old justin bieber is haha good stuff!!

“Patience is the ability to idle your motor when you feel like stripping your gears.”

I realized today that the closer i get to seeing Tyler the more impatient i am getting!
i feel like the next 35 days are going to go by so slow now that i have bought my plane ticket to go see him.

I want to be with him NOW! And the sucky part is as soon as i get used to being around him and seeing him everyday in a row I'm going to have to come back to Washington again! i don't know what part will be harder, waiting to go see him OR leaving him to come home. At least our wedding plans are coming along nicely. we already have all our basic idea's down for just about everything!

Saturday my mom, Lorrie, and my MOH (Maid Of Honor) are all meeting for lunch to go over some idea's and so my mom and Tyler's mom can meet FINALLY! i talked to ylers mom this morning about somethings that were bothering me so i feel better now.. i just want to spend time with Tyler's family before i move. And i don't want anyone to feel left out when planning the wedding.

I also found out at work today that the doctor im supposed to be working for isnt supposed to start at our clinic untill the end of augest AND she is only part time and they hired me on as full time, so i guess ill be doing exactly what I'm doing now .. just sitting there all day with nothing to do because we are a new clinic that is over staffed, and the new doctor is NEW so she wont have a clientele built up yet! so i might move to Korea before November! No point in me being here doing nothing when i can be spending time with Tyler.


So my mom had this great idea for mine and Tyler's wedding favors, she said we should make a mix CD of some of mine and Ty's favorite songs then we can burn a whole bunch of copies for the guests and put them in sleeves with our picture and the date we got married on! i think that's such a great idea! we both love music and that's one thing we can agree on, i forgot to ask him about it when he called but I'm sure he will like this idea as well. i just want to give the guests something they can keep for a long time and to remember our wedding by.

Well i guess that's it for now except i have to say i miss tyler so much especially today for some reason! i cant wait to finally see him :) i love him so much! He is such a hard worker, and i am so proud of him everyday!

headache...

i have a massive headache and i have had chest pain in my right upper chest all day, plus im irritated and frustrated with wedding crap at the moment ill blog tomorrow!!! i miss tyler.

This is not Burger King so apparently you cant"have it your way"

So i go online to buy my airline ticket to go see Tyler in Korea and the total comes out to 1282.00 so i call to see if i can pay for the ticket on 2 separate cards and to see if i could get a military discount on my flight. the answer was yes to the first question and to the 2nd it was a no due to the fact that i would have to show my military id card when i show my passport , OK fine so no discount for me.

THEN.. the women on the phone asks me what flight I'm looking at, so i give her all my flight details then she gives me the total of 1368.00 and i said no that's not right cause online it says its only 1282.00 and she says that sometimes they dont update their website, therefore that price is not available anymore. Well that's just peachy! isn't that like false advertising? maybe not maybe im the only one who thinks that way..? (the right way)

AND THEN... I ask if i can get a military discount since im going to korea to marry my boyfriend in the ARMY (that's part of the military in-case you dont know). And the woman says " NO because you have to have your military ID to board the plane" and i said "well i will have it once i come back " and she says "no".

AND THEN... I ask if they take promotional codes and she says " No" we only offer that when you purchase an airline ticket online and i said "OK" but what i was really thinking was " well if u had payment options online i would be purchasing online now wouldn't i?"

SO THEN... the woman asks me for all the credit card details and this i swear to the good lord above was the longer process ever! it took this woman 35 minutes to ask me my name, address, credit card number and security code, for 2 cards. Seriously! come on!

So After its all said and done I'm flying to south Korea on July 22nd until august 1st for 1368 when realistically i could have gone on cheapo-air.com and got my ticket for 100$ cheaper! that's what i get for thinking!


The Good part of the day was when me and my mom went to my friends printing shop in Everett to see if we could design our wedding invites the way me and Tyler visioned and that actually worked out perfect! everything seems to be falling into place with the exception of a few bumps in the road along the way, but how boring would life be if you had no bumps in the road and you lived life at a constant like a straight line______________________ i would much rather live like this -_-_-____-----_____----_-_-___- its way more interesting! dont you think? ( just say yes, because you know I'm right).

Sicky.

Today i have not been feeling good at all.

i woke up at 10 and haven't been feeling good all day, my eyes are red and itchy, my glands are swollen, ive had a migraine all day and body aches. i hope im not getting sick and its just my allergies! i cant afford to be sick right now, or for the next 6 months! i have so much stuff to get done and plan before i move.

i wish Tyler was here ! i miss him so much! i hope this next month goes by fast like the past 3 have ! i cant wait to get married. Tyler and i have been planning the wedding and have our wedding parties picked out!! i cant wait to ask my friends to be my bridesmaids!! i think our wedding next summer is going to be beautiful but simple and definitely a day to remember. I'm so happy and blessed to have the family and friends i have, and i am so thankful for having Tyler and his family in my life.

I'm glad I'm going to have 2 brothers, i have a brother but haven't seen him since sophomore year of high school and i barley saw him before that, it will be nice to have brother figures around who i know will look out for me especially if Tyler ends up getting deployed. Lorrie and Dave are Awesome parents and I'm glad we all get along and get to spend this summer together.They both have done such an amazing job raising 3 boys and providing for them and teaching them responsibility and respect, my parents also have done the same with me and my family , i hope i can be a great parent like them one day.

My In-laws!

from left to right: Christopher (big Brother), Kyle (Little Brother), Dave (Dad), Lorrie (Mom)

I'm also marrying into a family with the same values and Morales that i grew up with. Tyler and i were talking about how old fashion we both are when it comes to marriage and family.
We both agree that divorce will NEVER be an option and we both are stuck with each other. i think this is an important thing to establish before you get married , if u throw out the option of divorce you are forced to always workout difference's with each other no matter how big the problem is you may encounter with each other. In the end all the problems you face together only make you stronger as a whole.

I have so many things to look forward to this next year, i cant wait to experience new adventures with OUR new families and friends. I'm sure they are excited to experience this new adventure with Tyler and I as well!

"I’m your girl and you’re my man And we’re makin’ plans"

Things are really starting to fall into place just the way i want them with me and Ty and all the plans we have been making . We talked on skype for almost 6 hours last night talking about wedding plans! We are Both really excited about everything. Today i went and turned in my passport paperwork so now all i have to do is buy my plane ticket !! i cant wait! I am so happy with the descions i made. Moving is going to be hard but it will be worth it.

So far here are a list of things me and Ty have been Focusing on:

1. Us getting married
2. Planning our Wedding with Family and Friends
3. getting all our paperwork taken care of
4. Selling my car
5. finding a place to live in Korea when i get there

Tyler has really shown me how to be a better person since we have been together. i know now that its true when people say the heart must be broken often to make it wise, this is one way i knew that Tyler was the one. i know it sounds kinda cliche' but he really does bring out the best in me . He is the ONLY guy i have been with who has treated me with respect and who actually tries to fix things when something is wrong. He also doesn't let people disrespect me, He looks out for me even though sometimes i get mad cause i feel like he thinks i cant take care of myself but i know he just does it cause he cares about me.

I have never had a guy put me first before, I'm usually the one in the relationship who puts the other person first and to that person I'm never first , so i didn't know how it felt like to be a priority in someones life and care about me as much as he does.

I'm a strong believer that The human heart feels things the eyes cannot see, and knows what the mind cannot understand, and even though we might not understand love sometimes it still happens and i can say so far this has been the best journey and adventure i have been on , i hope i never forget the way i feel right now in these moments that mean so much to me and who are shaping me as a wife to be.

I can honestly say i will Love him forever and i know all this might sound stupid so I'm going to leave you with a quote from one of my favorite movies that i believe true "HONESTLY, IF YOU AREN'T WILLING TO SOUND STUPID THEN YOU DON'T DESERVE TO BE IN LOVE"

UGH!

When i get frusterated or sad or mad i like to rock out to something like this...

im too tired to blog tonight .. update later


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"You know you're in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams"

"You know you're in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams" This is exactly how i feel!

I'm So happy with where I'm at right now in my Relationship with Tyler. I get So excited just thinking about Running off that plane and wrapping my arms around him in 43 days. i get nervous thinking about seeing him that i cant sleep!

We are making BIG plans together and I'm loving every second of it! Usually great things like this dont happen to me, I'm really lucky to have a guy like Ty in my life. He can make me smile anytime even when I'm so mad. He is exactly the kind of person i need around in my life, the person i feel like i have been missing. It's Crazy to think that next month we are going to be getting married but I'm so excited!!!! i cant wait to start our new lives together!

My Birth Certificate was delivered to my house today so now i can Finally go get my passport! This makes me one step closer to seeing Ty. There are so many steps we have to take just to see each other let alone me moving there , that's a whole other story. but everything is in process and moving along! Like People always say when you date someone in the military Waiting is Always the hardest part, but i know he is worth the wait!

“In dreams and in love there are no impossibilities.”

Today something really great happened to me. At first i wasn't sure if this was a good idea but now that im sitting here thinking about it , its kind of a great idea. . .

I was at my friend Taylor's tonight and i was sitting on her computer talking to Ty on skype when he asked me " Why haven't you changed your status to Engaged?" on face book. i replied " "Because i dont have a ring on my finger and if you want it changed then you can change it" so he did change it but not to engaged, no sir , he changed it to MARRIED! So my first thought was " GREAT, I'm sure people are going to be just thrilled about this!" but then i realized i dont really care about what other people think about him and i getting married because its OUR choice. And I'm happy and am in love with him.

About 20 minutes after this posting went up i got about 6 people's reaction which all were "WHAT?" ha like its a bad thing! i know we both are young ,but honestly can anyone really put an age on love? i know its not going to be easy either, and it hasn't been since the beginning, we have our good times, our bad times, and hard times but the one thing that stays the same is that we always make it through difficult times together. I'm not perfect and i can admit that some choices i have made in the past weren't the right one, and I'm sure Ty would admit the same things, but isn't love about learning to grow with each other and making memories good and bad? life is no fairytale that's for sure.

I'm not saying people have to agree with our decision but i know all our true friends will and my family likes Tyler a lot so they are happy for me. I'm not sure how his family feels about me or this whole thing but I'm sure we will find out soon. If people cant see that i love him then they are truly blind. How many girls do you know would pick up there life and move across the world to be with their boyfriend in the military ? how many? i mean you can call me crazy if you want but i call that love, love is crazy and so is life. i mean just turn on the news, honestly how many good things are on the news these days? close to nothing isn't that crazy? i think it is ! but guess what? people still watch the news some even watch it everyday. The point is I'm not going to base my life off of what others think i should do ,or what others think about me. i know I'm making a big decision and commitment but that's what we both are ready for.

i just want everyone to remember The course of true love never did run smooth ,this is how i know our love is true just look at me and you!

This Sums up The Way I Feel Today...

The Way I Feel Today in Quotes..


Do not repeat anything you will not sign your name to.

Go with what you feel is right, not what other people think is wrong

When you come to the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on. ~Franklin D. Roosevelt

When you get into a tight place and everything goes against you, till it seems as though you could not hang on a minute longer, never give up then, for that is just the place and time that the tide will turn. ~Harriet Beecher Stowe

Sticks and stones are hard on bones
Aimed with angry art,
Words can sting like anything
But silence breaks the heart.
~Phyllis McGinley, "Ballade of Lost Objects," 1954


To know when to go away and when to come closer is the key to any lasting relationship. ~Doménico Cieri Estrada


Expecting the world to treat you fairly because you are good is like expecting the bull not to charge because you are a vegetarian. ~Dennis Wholey

Tired.

Today I am tired and in more then one way....

First off I'm just regular tired , like sleepy tired which i can deal with to a certain extent, until other things start to piss me off, like the fact that Tyler doesn't get a lunch break for a SECOND day in a row because dumb inspections at the base. Now to me this doesn't sound like a job for all those who are in the military it sounds like prison. i think if men and women are risking Their lives to protect their country they should get a damn lunch break not once every other day or once a week but EVERYDAY!

Since Tyler doesn't get his lunch break today AGAIN the only time i will be able to talk to him is at about 12:30AM my time do the people who run the military not understand how something this little effects the rest of our lives? not only does my hard working future husband not get to eat his damn sandwich but now i gotta be sure to wake my ass up at 12:30am just so i get to talk to him , that doesn't help me when i'm already tired! Plus his mom wont get to talk to him now either since she wakes her ass up early to go to work as well. it just seems redicoulous to me that the people serving our country get treated like this it really makes me mad!

You know what else makes me mad? when people have to put their 2 cents in about everything i decide to do with my life! its not like im a drug pusher or alcoholic or something, im dating someone in the military!!! if i want to move to be with him then thats what im going to do. i dont care what other people think about it because its MY life and I'M going to DO what I WANT!

now that i got that all out ... check out this Awesome Nike Commercial!!!

Sunday, The Day Of Rest.

Well today was definitely a day of rest for me! i slept a lot today. i find that on every Sunday i sleep a lit and just have a lazy day.

haven't talked to Tyler today, but i dyed my hair back to my natural color. I also spent a lot of time with my mom today, she seems sad that I'm going to Korea but i think her and my dad will be OK. its time for me to experience new things. Plus this will give my parents some alone time.

i cant wait to go to Korea ! only 46 more days i hope it goes by super fast! Not Much going on Today at all, hopefully work will be eventful tomorrow, and ill be talking to Ty soon so ill have something to post on here soon!!

On a Different note... i miss my friend mark dearly. he is also in the Armed Forces , he is a marine. he just got back to the states due to really unfortunate circumstances. his best friend past away over in Afgan. the Saturday before memorial day. my heart hurts for him and his friends family. i keep thinking about his friends parents and his girlfriend, he was only 20 years old. its not fair that he didn't get to experience a lot of things he should have. He died doing what he loved to and that's for sure. This is a Thank You to him for everything he gave up to protect all of us and his country. if you would like to read the story please click his name below.

RIP-LCpl Anthony DiLisio you are a True Hero and will be Missed.

Live For Today...Plan For Tomorrow...Party Tonight..!

Live For Today...Plan For Tomorrow...Party Tonight... this definitely sums up the day i had today, today was Tyler's Little brothers graduation party. I know not all of you know Tyler or his family but they LOVE to party! Their parties are always fun but also sometimes nerve racking because you never know whats going to happen next..

Today was especially nerve racking for me since Tyler's grandparents and aunt are visiting from Texas that i have never met before. Needless to say they all are very nice people just like the rest of Tyler's close knit family.

It's very hard on both me ,Ty, and his family and friends (especially Lorrie, Tyler's mom) when he isn't there at his family get together and parties, its even harder when i meet his family members I've never met before without him standing next to me. Today i found myself looking around thinking Tyler would be around but he wasn't. the closest any of us can get to him is when we all crowd in a small room to talk to him on skype, while this is a nice resource to have it's still nothing like the real thing. i know its even harder for him then all of us.

Sometimes i feel like i don't have anything in common with some of his family members EXCEPT that we all share this UN fill-able void of his missing presence when we're all together. like a little piece of each and everyone of us is milling because he isn't there with us, i hate this feeling. All i keep telling myself is that this too is only temporary and soon we can all be together again with no missing pieces and no worrying, just good times, laughter and making life long memories.

All in all tonight was a great experience for me, it was a chance for me to spend time with Tyler's family and the friends that are closest to him and i know it means a lot to him that im there even if he cant be.

i look forward to spending more time and getting to know everyone in his family, it makes me feel closer to him .

Welcome To My Blog!

Who ever said "All is fair in Love and War" was right. But how Fair is it to Be in love with someone who is at war? This just so Happens to be the predicament i am in. its the classic story of " They fell in love then He went off to War And...." i would fill in the blank but then there would be no point for me to start this blog. This is where the "And... " part comes into play, The middle and end of what i would like to think will be MY greatest love story starts here.

Let me start off by Introducing myself. My name is Courtney, i am 20years old (soon to be 21).

i Live in a small town in washington state. I work as a medical Assistant 5 days a week. I Love helping others and i take pride in what i do. When im not at work im usually at home with my "room mates " AKA: Mom, Dad, my 22 year old sister and my 3 dogs. I sometimes venture out of my oh so quiet italian house hold (sarcasm no italians are quitet) to go hangout with friends which i have few of, i have always lived by "all you need is a handful of good friends" kind of thinking and maybe thats because i have always had only a handful of good friends.

About 10 months ago i became ....i guess you could say "interested" in a boy named Tyler.

Tyler and i went to the same highschool and had the same group of friends but we didnt actually know eachother. At first, i will admit i didnt think i would take a liking to Tyler in the "im going to fall in love with you and marry you kind of way" or even in the "your going to be my future boyfriend" kind of way. when me and tyler first hungout what i really thought was...."WOW this guy is a redneck" or "i like country boys but, he might be a little TOO country for me". To Make a long story short i was VERY wrong! But not in the way you would think yes he sometimes does act like a redneck which is why his nickname in highschool was "RED" or the fact that he was a country boy , i was wrong because i fell in love with him. i was definitly scared to admit it at first especially because he had just gotten out of a 5 year relationship and because he "forgot" to mention he had joined the military 2 weeks before leaving for boot camp, but after us hangingout and talking A LOT i knew he was the "ONE" . Tyler is the BEST guy i have Ever dated or been with he is straight up and real, he isnt like other guys that most girls know as manipulative or unfaithful he is exactly the opposite with the good looks and sense of humor.

Tyler is a Medic in the army. our love for helping others is the same. i'll admit i wasnt the happiest girl when he told me he joined the military but i accept it, i thought that would be the hardest thing for me to hear but again i was very wrong. in the past 10 months Tyler and i have gone through a lot for being how young we are and considering the fact he hasnt even been in the military for a whole year yet. so far our hardships have consisted of: being together to being worlds apart, breaking up and seeing other people to getting back together, finding out he was getting stationed in korea, to us getting engaged and planning a wedding so i could move out of the country to be with him, to calling EVERYTHING off (which was my fault ill admit) , and now being back together. This whole Beginning experiance with the military has been an emotional roller coaster ride for both of us. since things are now a lot better between us i have decided to create this blog all about me, Tyler, and OUR Journey, Experiance's, and hardships living the military life. it isnt exactly the "american dream" but life is messy and i am a true beleiver that overcoming your hardships makes you stronger especially when you have someone to experiance it with.

I will end my first post by saying Falling in love with someone isn't always going to be easy... Anger... tears... laughter.. It's when you want to be together despite it all. That's when you truly love another. I'm sure of it.